idk why but today feels so frustrating. First, there was this lab activity. it used to be my favourite lab. Where I can understand almost everything the lecturer talked about in front of class. However, today, i dont understand a single thing before this one kind doctor explained it once more. i got a really really bad - quality microscope. it shoud have been good bcs it’s new. but the lamp wouldnt turn on and i had to change 3 times before i got an okay one. however, it’s still awful and i ended up sharing microscope. super unlucky. considering there are many good microscopes but i got the ones that are broken. gosh :( Next, the class was cancelled. got me thinking why did i came. for real. i did came only because for the lab. the lab was not that enjoyable ( it should have been fun but i guess the broken microscope ruined my day, just unlucky ) and now the class is cancelled. because the class is cancelled, we got 3 hours free. i got this sie acara premod meeting. yes i was still pissed but for another thing. next, lunch with friends. another thing triggered my rage. I think its all because i started the day with an awful start. and the domino effect came. haha. my suggestion ppl, start ur day with smile and i guess the rest of ur day will be okay :)

again. i’m writing this in the middle of my assignments hahaha.

what do you really wish to have in ur partner? here i got mine.

I only wish for a shoulder to lean on when I cry. A hand to hold when i am scared. Fingers to wipe away all my fears and tears. A heart big enough to accept me the way I am and loves me unconditionally. 

Then I will give him what he gives to me.

I am not an ordinary girl u find in ur daily life. A girl u can flirt and leave after u’re bored. My heart is made of glass and easily broken. so i hope u can guard it well :)

regards,

me

it’s been like moths since the last time i went back to my hometown. miss my fam a lot. haha. but it doesnt mean my life here isnt that good. my life’s here been so good. so many cool friends and cool things happened. where do i start? hmm.. tasks? HELL LOADS OF IT. haha. in fact, i’m supposed to write my individual research proposal when i’m writing this. well.. hahaha. i’m a good procrastinaor. that’s one thing i’m good at. orientation programme? it was okay but i prefer if it was done on weekdays. i hope i can join organization i want! hahaha. exams? the truth is, i feel like i’m the most unprepared student here in this med school. huahahaha. they all are so smart and prepared. but life goes on rite? hahaha. havin fun? so much fun. hahaha. friends? they are all so good to me. i have nothing to complain abt them. well, i’ve known them for only like 3 months so i havent known them that good. but, so far so good. the thing i hate here? i’m getting fatter. blame ******! hahaha. anyway, yesterday i joined a fitness club so i can be skinnier again —”.

miss my high school life? damn sure i do. but seeing my friends all go and have their own life, somehow it makes me think that high school was fun. it was a phase and now we have to move on. to a waaay different level of life. waaay different level of thinking. *wowww.. so cool* hahaha. 

i can see that there are still highschool friends with their old habits. old habits die hard rite? haha. it’s just fun. remembering things u love. seeing things u always saw. :P

wishlist? all my tasks finish themselves! hahahaha. i would loooovveee if that is happening to me RITE NOW hahahahaha.. :DD and yes i would love if my daddy buy me a car here. hahaha. i had my first driving experience here using Geswin’s jazz. huahaha. so sorry ges! :p anyway, i need a car ! hahaha

i also live the church here. st. theresia. idk why. it reminds me of my old school, st. mary ES-JHS. hahaha.

i hope my life is still this exciting in the upcoming months, years. hahaha. i know things will be harder and harder. but that’s life, isnt it? do it and have fun with it. :))

i hope ur life is as good as mine. well, at least u enjoy yours :)

ciao ppl. gotta got back to my literature review —”

see you when i see you.

i am no stranger to this word. “goodbye”. this word haunts me everywhere. just yesterday, i said this word to my best friend, Sherly Mardiana. gosh. thanks god i could hold my tears thinking that in feb she’d be back and i’ll go there in like 4 yrs again. hahaha. i’m not always this strong ya know. i cried like a baby when my bestie, Monica Nitisantoso left me to Canada. She’s my closest friend and losing her is like losing a sister. not losing in real term off course. well it turns out she changed her phone to blackberry and we talked a lot. —” well, it turns out “goodbye” is not always a “goodbye”. you see, we can be miles apart but our hearts and mind will always be close to each other. blimey, i’m scared as hell to move to jakarta. thinking i’ll lose my friends. but it turns out the tech know no limit now. we have facebook, twitter, tumblr, msn, skype, etc. So, why should be afraid of “goodbye”s? it’s just another “see you”s! :)

i just watched the glee finale and it was AWESOME! hahaha. have u watched it? well honestly, it’s not my favourite of all but it still AWESOME :)). if u ask me which one is my favourite i will probably cant answer it. hahaha. cause I love EM ALL! :)). well.. i think Diana Agron looked so pretty and yes i’m still in love with Puck. aaaa. fellow glee lovers, you need to watch it ASAP :)))))))

hmm. i’m going to move to jakarta in like a month. it feels strange. totally strange. i feel awkward, anxious, yet excited at the same time. you see, my whole life i’ve spent in surabaya. all my family and friends are here. being introduced to a total new environment definitely creeps me. i fear of having no companion, being terrible at my subject, etc. i know i’ve been dreaming this my whole life but it seems kinda scary now. hahaha. being a med student. wow. i still cant believe it. yes until now. the school - thingie starts in august. we’ll have choir practice and school introduction. plenty of activities will be done in august. most of em will be held in depok while my apartment is in jakarta. well i guess i should go through this phase of university so i can get a lot of friends and also new experience. hahaha. actually i’m pretty excited but still i’m being kinda too worried bout things i shouldnt worry about. hahaha. all my thoughts begin in “what if”. aaaaa. hahaha. well.that’s all in my mind rite now. sorry for being so pesimistic hahaha. i hope i’ll be more optimistic :))

nah looo.. gara2 semua nulis kalo kangen ia8.. saya juga tergerak.. hahaha.. apa ya.. ia8 itu kayak gado2.. berbagai tipe arek lah ada.. trs ipa 8 tu ngangeni.. ndak tau ya apae sg ngangeni.. mgkn gara2 2 taon sekelas, trs tiba2 nganggur gini.. trs bis gitu jd e kangen pol.. hahahahaha.. anak2 e super kreatif.. ada davita sg bikin badge kelas.. trus ingrid sg seneng ngeditno foto kelas.. neneg mb yere.. duo admin yg bikin blog kelas dpt nilai paling tinggi.. hehehe.. anake ia8 tu juago2 wes.. masalah akademik ya ws patut diacungi jempol ws.. ada sherly.. sg sempet nyicipi jadi paralel 2 sakIPA sinlui.. trus ada arief sg ikut olimpiade komputer.. ada juga ira sg juagoooo mandarin trus kalo non-akademik tu tambah banyak lagi.. misale eric sg jago main gitar… sampe di”kontrak” gae ngiringi bbrp kelompok pas nyanyi mandarin.. vero, lisa sg suarae emas.. roy yang jago badminton..philip si atlet wushu tingkat nasional.. cici si atlet rollbox.. hahaha eh bukan2..si cheer dbl :D. trus ada keho si kapten futsal sinlui trus sonia yang jago bikin kerajinan tangan..

ngga cuma pinter.. ia8 tu ya rajin2.. punya kuartet rajin fefe, yurike, ardine, reta… ngga cuma itu se.. ada si trio SSC ya sg rajin..tep sylvani n edwin

trus ada peramai kelasss.. hahaha.. sg bikin kelas ga kalah unik n spesial tu ada bintang n marco.. kalo guru2 se pasti inget e mb wahyu n genial.. lek wahyu se gara2 de seneng tidur di kelas hahaha.. lek genial se soale rajin mbantu guru2.. gara2 de duduk dek depan dewe..

oyaaaa.. bendahara kelas ia8 tu super ampuhh hahahaha.. ada acek mb luke.. ws..ini duet maut lek nariki duit kas! hahahaha..

di pojok kiri kelas *ato kanan ya?* ada kuartet arisan.. ada tita hilda vania n christina :D arisan ini areke lucu2.. apalagi pas bazaar hahhahaa.. :DD

di kelas ia8 ini banyak maniak bola dan jagoan2 bola hahahahaha.. ada ivan candi.. sg jualan kaos bola hahahaha.. trus yere vincent reyner yang ngikut tim BLACK HORSE ada juga wendy cassidi yang ngikut tim AA+++

oyaaaa.. ada 2 personil ia8 sg melanglang buana sih skrg.. hahaha.. ada mocha yang k canada.. n ivonne sg k aussie..

yaaaaa.. itu ae sih.. why i love ia8.. hahaha.. super GADO2 ya.. NANO2 rame rasanya hahahahaha…